IS IT A SUCCESS OR A TEST

3 Disember diuji dengan pelbagai pahit dan manis.
Beberapa minggu sebelum, aku di saat meletakkan hati pada keadaan pasrah dan redha semampu mungkin bila tesis semakin payah, jalan untuk mendapat kerja hilang tanpa berita dan aku masih cuba untuk senyum dan berkata ya, semuanya baik-baik sahaja.

Di hari 3 Disember, Allah berikan perkhabaran rezeki kerja yang ditunggu. Teringat semula saat temuduga yang terakhir, akan niat jika itu adalah rezeki yang buatku lebih baik dan dekat kepada Dia, maka permudahkanlah. Lalu terimbau kembali dengan temuduga terdahhulu, di mana niat yang sama dituturkan tapi jawapan tuhan masih bukan, itu bukan tempatmu.

Senyum tak dapat ditahan sehingga mata ingin dipejam. Menerima khabar kematian sepupu terdekat, membuka mata dan memadam khabar gembira di siang harinya. Air mata menemani hingga pagi dan khabar gembiraku lenyap begitu saja. Dia pergi dalam keadaan mendapat redha kedua umi abahnya. Al-fatihah,dik.

Semua ini adalah permulaan untuk kesenangan mendatang InsyaAllah dengan izinNya. Dan ini semua adalah kenangan kepada permulaan perjalanan baruku dari tanggal 16 Disember hingga sekarang.

Pesan untuk diri, bukan senang untuk senang. Dan kesenangan juga adalah ujian.

Layakkah aku berkata penat

The days seem full of sorrow and darkness
Tomorrow comes with the rainbow
But after all, I realized
That the days were mine,
Are mine,
But I don't paint them well.
And HE said:

53:39-42

And that there is not for man except that [good] for which he strives

And that his effort is going to be seen -

Then he will be recompensed for it with the fullest recompense

And that to your Lord is the finality.

😊

I hate it
When it comes to a point of feeling
Lost
And can't even think a single thing
Without realising,
Maybe I am too far from him
And sometimes,
Just because the feeling
Will make you close to Him
More

😭😭

Don't know why,
But already bet that this will be going hard,
Yes,
Right now,I am too helpless and don't even wanna think anything,
But stay still will never change anything
.........................
One thing,
Don't ever let the others know your tears please,
And please
Don't expect others to understand,
And please
Don't ever try to think you're being in the hardest shoes right now,
Stop comparing
No one will understand.
Just keep faith
And move forward
You can do this
Believe it
Believe it on how far you had gone through,
Bear in mind, the smile of your loves ones alongside you,
Let's do this..
HE will guide you,sweetie.

🎶

Sometimes,
At a point of my life
I always thought that what I had done was a mistake
Everything were mistakes.
Sometimes,
I just love to start all sort of things that I really want to do,I want to achieve
Without thinking,
Because I just wanna do.
But then,
Till a point where I fall,
I will just realised the thing that must had been realised before.
But it just be too late.
I was and am always like that.
That is me
This is me

100% of life

Hati ironinya lemah,
Senang untuk kecewa.
"Quoted💗
.......................
"In this life,
10% of it,
Depends on how you make it,
On how well you want your future shows,
90% of it,
Is on how you make it through,
Either you just want to fell, stand and keep trying all over again,
Or,
Vice versa"
...........

💪

Sometimes,
We just need to reflect on what that causing us to be in a situation that we're really hard to live in.

List all the problems.
Sort them out.
Are they possible to be solved?
Reflect.

If it may, let's walk.
If not, let's keep asking, may He ease us for anything we try.